On the 26th of May, 2021, I began to remember the events of the winter of 1983, when I was raped by my counselor, a man named Francis who worked for Kay County, Oklahoma as a counselor for children at a county run shelter.

After repeated incidents of fondling and kissing me in the office during which time I was hypnotized by Francis, he invited me to his home. I remember being invited into the basement and anally penetrated after being convinced that I would enjoy it. I do not yet recall all of the details of the incident, but have always remembered coming home afterwards and trying to kill myself with my pocket knife, and stabbing my pillow instead, through the Garfield comic I had drawn onto the pillow case with Francis some time prior.

This incident drastically changed my life as it came as I was doing extremely well socially, having become the most popular kid in school. I had even asked the most popular girl in school out, who had said yes. Despite this, because of this incident, I had decided to go ahead and let my mother send me back to live with my father, denying myself any possibility of continuing the efforts of building a social life I never had the opportunity to have living with my father because I was heavily bullied.

I have attempted to report this incident to the Ponca City Police Department, Kay County Sheriffs Department, and Federal Bureau of Investigation, all of whom have ignored or made fun of my report.

I would very much like to sue Kay County, Oklahoma, the Kay County Youth Shelter, and either the man or his estate, for the extreme damage this incident caused me.

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